DISQUS

dan · 6 years ago

I so wish I didn't understand this one; but after being married a time or two, I really truly do...

lizard · 6 years ago

knew i shoulda disclaimered this further. for the record i met Tara in person within the last 2 1/2 years & she looks beautiful at size fourteen. stunningly beautiful. women are beautiful at all kinds of sizes for all kinds of reasons.


and there's nothing at all wrong with looking the way i look. i mean, honestly, i'm pretty hot. i really am. objectively i tell you this & yet the inner critic assigned to the weight division is still standing there radiating abusive disapproval at me.

lizard · 6 years ago

& one more thing -- to list things like sizes and/or admit my weight in numbers is by far the most difficult of the revealing writing i do here. i'd way rather tell you how i jacked off in my car in a public venue than admit what size my pants are or how much the body in them weighs.
issues. i have 'em.

Tara · 6 years ago

I appreciate your candor (and the compliment too - thanks!)

I think I was trying to say something more along the lines of "I understand" - I have shorts that are twelves and pants that are tens that mock me; literally MOCK me... and I spend mornings freaking out because I just don't have anything that fits and/or looks decent (or that would look decent in a professional environment).

but you're right, though. women are beautiful at all shapes/sizes/etc. I have a hard time realizing that (about myself) but really appreciate when others can affirm that - about themselves and others - I dunno, I guess it just makes me feel a little stronger about the fact that maybe I can too.

I'm going to stop now before I ramble too much more, but just know that I really did appreciate this post (because I feel it myself). And yes, having met ya in person (roughly almost 2 years ago if memory serves - MLK weekend?) I can say honestly that yes, you're beautiful too. :)

lizard · 6 years ago

two years ago ... when i was (yes i remember the exact pants i was wearing that day) poured into a pair of thirteen/fourteens, which was the first & last time those fit up until about april of this year, yeah, i got plenty bigger from there, up to a maximum of 18. so i guess there's some basis in something somewhere for my obsession with pants. doesn't justify the sort of pissy self loathing i directed at my self today but it does explain it. no it doesn't. but ... oh man.

Tara · 6 years ago

I range from fourteen to eighteen... lately it's been on the sixteen side, but fourteens are tight and sixteens are loose... nothing in between when everything I buy comes from the sale racks at old navy... (i remember what I wore that day too - funny how the mind works)

Tara · 6 years ago

I haven't fit into anything smaller than a fourteen in two and a half years. A size nine would be HEAVEN right about now.

Good luck...

barbara · 6 years ago

ditto tara's note, except in my case it's been more like five years. a good 30 since i could squeeze into a 9.

sub/ver/sion · 6 years ago

Hi Tara, hi Liz. Both of you do rock rightously!

lizard · 6 years ago

remembering what we wore -- both of us -- um. that's ...



i'm sorry i hate to overuse the word but damn that's way profound.

lizard · 6 years ago

bobby, if there's one thing that's become clear in these comments here it's that we are often not the best judges of how we look in women's clothes. therefore i think you should let someone else be the judge of that. i'd be happy to help out.

Bobby · 6 years ago

I look funny in women's clothes.

BaldFatGuy · 6 years ago

Women clothes eh? or just the panties?
all i know is that i dont fit a size anything anymore, they have to make em for me. they do a good job at the tall and large outfitters.

Anyway wayyy of topic, Liz you have been doing good, and you look good in the pics too. Maybe you just need to buy some new ones?

Blessed be. BFG